Toasted skin

Bill and I went to the beach yesterday. It was perfect. High 70's and a nice breeze... We both left in pain. He was raving about this spray on sunblock and I decided to give it a shot. Bad idea! It doesn't work for those pasty pale folks like myself. His legs are burnt too.

So today his parents invite us over for a crab feast- which I don't eat but we were told there would be plenty of food... Just so happens to be ribs and pork BBQ- which I don't eat other. So my dinner tonight will be potato salad... So currently I'm sitting by myself at a table near the pool while everyone else is half a football field away from me sitting at a picnic table looking like a family. It makes me feel like I don't really fit in. I know it sounds stupid- trust me, I know that.

On a lighter note, katelyn will be here in a couple of weeks and I just found out my friend Kelsey will be coming up for a night or two when her and her boyfriend go to dc to visit his dad. So that should be fun.

I really liked the beach we went to... It's called Assateague island... It has wild ponies- we saw one in the parking lot- it was so neat! The beach wasnt crowded like Daytona or Cocoa. Being there reminded me of the days when Kari and I practically lived at the beach... We had so much fun... I miss having that kind of friendship in my life... I still have that friendship with her and a few others... Just not on a daily basis. Anyways, after the beach we had drinks and crab dip at a place on the bay then went down the street for a few more drinks and dinner. I'm excited to bring katelyn to the beach and hopefully she will see some ponies!

Chop chop

So I'm at Bills parents house (like we are every weekend) and I'm excited to be able to watch the Braves play. This is the first game this year that has been televised here! It's nice, peaceful and reminds me that summer is here.

I've been in Florida for so long that I forgot that summer is an actual season and doesn't happen 9 months out of the year!

This girl I work with, Lauren, and I have decides to read 50 Shades of Grey just so we can see what the fuss is all about. It's not what I expected- it's more a romantic love story than a freaky kinky sex story. I really like it. I'm on the 2nd book and it's hard to put it down... I love when I can get into a book like that. Since school has been (like 3 weeks) I've read 5 books. I'm loving this summer so far.

I've decided to have Katelyn come here this summer. She is looking forward to it. Bill and I are planning on taking her to New York to see my grandma :) it should be fun!

I started working at the daycare again this week... I can't say I'm really enjoying it but it's extra money and they are flexible with my schedule- I basically tell them when I want to work.

The braves are trailing the nationals again... I hope they pull off this win!

vacation up for grabs....

So, in a shocking turn of events my father canceled his trip to see Bill and me this summer. He sold his house and he will be moving out towards Nashville. It's a bummer. Now, I'm undecided on what to do with my vacation. Katelyn is really looking forward to coming up here to visit Washington DC. With my free 2 weeks I could go down to Florida and spend time with my mom and friends. It would be an all over Florida trip.... Gainesville for Mom, Ocala for Helen, Jax for Haydee, Tampa for Kari, and Orlando for Jessica, Jen, Nicole, Kelsey, ect....  I have to think about it and talk to Katelyn and my mom about this. It would mean 2 weeks without Bill- I haven't gone 2 nights without seeing him in over 2 years... That would be different. 

Let me switch topics and talk about annoying things at work... 

Dear Customers,

- Do not go through the Drive-thru if your windows do not roll down

- If you are a business and have 4-5 deposits with lots of checks- do not go through the drive-thru

- If you give me a check and your ID, I'm going to assume you want to cash the check, If you want it deposited don't wait until I give you the money to say "Oh i wanted to deposit that"

- If you give me a check that is signed and has an account number on the back, I will ask "are we cashing or depositing"- I am not a mind reader regardless of what you think- do not get an attitude about this

- When I say "hi, how are you" the correct response goes something like "good, you" not you staring at me like I have 3 heads. 

- Do not give me an attitude when I tell you we can't cash your check because you are overdrawn on your account -$335.00 

I guess you have pain in the ass customers in any job that involves customer service. 

In another unrelated topic.... I've been volunteering at the Humane Society and I'm in love with so many kitties and puppies! It is the worst place I could go.... I haven't been in a while and I'm afraid to go back... I got attached to one cat and when I took Bill to meet him as a possibly adoption for us, he was gone :( I was devastated. 

Love them :)

the start of something new

I've always felt a little awkward about writing a blog. I don't really feel like I have anything profound to say or anything that will impact the lives of others. Nevertheless, here I am. One of my very best friends strongly encouraged me to start one so we can keep up with each other in our daily lives... so if this is an utter disaster or extremely boring, Jessica is to blame :) 

I didn't really want to start this with something heavy... but that's how I feel right now, so it's gonna happen. I really miss my friends and family. It's been over a year since I've moved to Maryland and over a year since I've seen the people that mean the most to me. I saw two of my friends, Kelsey and Lorin, in October when they came to visit me for a couple of days.It was great seeing them and I'm glad I got to see them and spend time with them. I wish I could see the other people that are part of me... I miss my mom the most. I miss hugging her. I miss standing outside and talking to her while she puffs away on her cigarette. I miss going to her house for the weekend and laying on her bed talking to her while she puts away her laundry. It's all these small things that add up to a big gaping hole. I miss being there for my sister. She is getting into the teenage years and I know how hard my teenage years were, I don't want her to feel the same. I hate never being able to help her with her homework or taking her to a movie. I miss Jen and now she has a baby that I don't know. It saddens me that I can't see little Izzy and hold her and play with her. I wasn't able to help Jen through her pregnancy, I wasn't there to help her after she got home from the hospital. I miss Jessica. I miss straightening each others hair, I miss slumber parties, I miss eating dinner in the park, I miss playing Guess Who and Facebook Uno while sitting next to each other cheating, I miss seeing movies because the actor was nice to look at even though we knew the plot was going to be awful! I miss Kari and painting pottery and her taste in music. I miss going to the beach and getting my car stuck in the sand, I miss concerts, and I miss her laugh- it is so infectious. 

When I moved away from Florida 6 years ago to go to Tennessee, Jessica told me something that stuck with me. Everything about my life changed, the people I left behind kept living theirs the same. (something along those lines) It's true. Nothing really changed for these people when I left, except not seeing a friend- they still had their other friends and loved ones and jobs and school... life goes on. Don't get me wrong... I have all those things- I've met some really nice people here, but it isn't the same. I love this area. I would never move back to Florida and I don't regret leaving. Some days it's just hard to be away from the people who complete me. 

Well that was incredibly depressing.... I'm going to go cook dinner now for myself and my loving boyfriend and hopefully have a better evening than last night.